Even after you get hold of an erectile dysfunction drug to treat your impotency, will you be able to take it in front of your girlfriend? Won’t you be full of utter shame and embarrassment if your girlfriend gets to know that you are impotent? So, on an exciting night if you urgently desire to initiate a vigorous sexual session with your girlfriend, is there no option left with you to treat your impotency and have satisfactory sex with your partner. Yes you certainly have an option in the form of ED dugs but with any ED drug there is a risk, risk that your partner will know about your erectile dysfunction secret if you administer an anti-impotency medication before her?Well in this universe there is a solution for every problem and so this problem is also not an exception. The way out to the above problem lies in a tactful handling of the same and it is possible only if you administer the erectile dysfunction drug in such a way that your girlfriend doesn’t get inkling about your drug administration.Cialis is the only erectile dysfunction drug available in the market which you can easily pick up from a favorite online store and administer to your system in the morning and get ready for your nocturnal sexual adventure. As Cialis works in the system for full 36 hours, with this drug it becomes possible for you to free yourself from the influence of erectile dysfunction a much longer time prior to your indulgence in sexual activity without divulging the news that you are an erectile dysfunction patient.So, what do you think now? Would you like to
We live very much in a society where addiction is no longer about the will to resist temptation, but how much we ask of it in the process of finding true satisfaction. My question therefore, asks if there is such a thing as being that bit - just ADDICTED?There are two main points to addiction in my opinion, which are seemingly buried deep within our psyche as people. The first and most important is that anybody who finds themselves at the mercy of addiction, is more than likely suffering from low self-esteem. This is evident when addiction takes complete control over everything we do as we unconsciously grant it full permission to dominate our existence. Suffering at the hands of a different fate through external forces with little thought to the real consequences just to feel normal, is far removed from the original plan GOD had intended for us, I'm sure. Although there are much more subtle addictions available for which, some of us are not even aware controls our lives – these are sometimes more frightening than the more obvious forms of entrapment. The second is that unfortunately there will always be low life dirty rotten scoundrels, lurking in the background, eager to profit from someone else's misery.
These are the two basic facts about addiction and as hard as it appears to be, the truth always hurts.
So, exactly what types of addiction are there available for us to unwittingly sacrifice our souls for? I have composed a few examples alongside my opinion in the bid to understand the curse that our society has become victim to.
DRUGS addiction: My train of though stems from a memory of a Star Trek episode concerning a spieces called The Gem-Hadar. They were enslaved by their so called Gods with the desperation to consume a substance simply known as 'White', in order that they didn't die, sound familiar? Just how far is fiction removed from reality? The storyline ended more or less when six or so were stranded elsewhere, unable to survive without their beloved drug, they thought they were going to die. But they didn't. Going back to their homeland to set the rest of their race free, they were stunned when the others refused to believe their miracle in the making and the hierarchy had them killed off anyway.
Unfortunately drugs still prove to be one of the most dangerous of all addictions available to those who seek out its pleasures. We have all heard of the life of rock and rollers in bands and on tour and in particular well known people who have had to battle the evil of drugs. I found it interesting that Aerosmith frontman Steve Tyler and guitarist Joe Perry, back in the 1970's were given the nickname of the 'Toxic Twins' due to their rampant use of drugs (and alcohol) both on stage and off. The nick name referring to the 'toxic' combination which almost ended their careers and although they cleaned up their act they are sometimes still referred to as this twenty-five years later.
There's a whole list of British actors and actresses renowned for drug abuse and offences. Daniella Westbrook famously lost the septum of her nose and appeared on several television shows much the worse for wear, alongside celebrity nobody Tara Parma-Tomkinson – Who? Exactly. A children's presenter for the BBC Richard Bacon was famously sacked from Blue Peter in 1999 after the newspaper caught him in the act of drug abuse.
Soul singer Witney Houston's career spiralled downwards when she became involved with drugs; many put this down to the meeting of her husband Bobby Brown. The list is sadly endless…Naomi Campbell, Kate Moss, Robert Downey Jnr, Tommy Lee have all hit the headlines. These of course are people in the public eye.
If celebrities can't refine from the temptations of drugs then what hope is there for our average Joe's? I wander just how many people are actually in the grip of this infectious disease and that if anybody took the time to count them all up, just how shocking would that end figure really be.
Films for which, portray the evils of this addiction are 'Train spotting' 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas' and 'Blow' and anybody thinking of walking down this abusive path of vulgarity really need to rethink the worth of their lives, even if it seems impossibly bad at the time without drugs.
In the mean time drug rehab centres are profiting from people trying to come clean alongside the ones who got them in that position in the first place – the dealers. All those who still don't understand that we live in a dog eat dog world, need to seriously reconsider their place in it!
ALCOHOL addiction: This is much more subtle than drugs because alcohol isn't illegal but it should be. I can certainly understand how someone may get addicted to this substance because it's easy to get hold of when your underage and it's cool to get drunk when you are experimenting with your social life, during your early teens and twenties. Infact, if you didn't get absolutely hammered every Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday night then there was clearly something wrong with you and if there was a bank holiday then bring it on! Oh my poor kidneys. This new fad which hit the 1980's with a passion lead to grave warnings of binge drinking and how dangerous this seemingly social commodity really was in the cold light of the day. The day-after- the-night-before hangover was simply a reminder, rather like that of a post-it-note to yourself, to never go that far EVER again. However, most of us out grow this irresponsibility by the time we reach our mid-thirties, when all we want to do is settle down and have a family and maybe down the odd glass of vino (not bottle) or can of ale after a hard day at the office. However, some continue and this is when the addiction really bites you up the jacksy.
Apparently whilst visiting a relative in hospital, a nurse was talking to me about the drunks that regularly visited her in her work place. She said you can't die from 'Cold Turkey' withdrawal from drugs, although you feel like you are dying at the time, but you can from alcoholism. She was actually writing out a prescription for a resident for 'White Lightening Cider' as we spoke. Crazy I know.
Alcohol abuse is probably the first thing we turn to when life seems difficult but what a lot of people don't realise is that this particular drug attaches itself to how you feel at the time of consuming large quantities of it. If you are happy and on a night out to get 'smashed out of yo
Working From Home, Are You Checking For Errors?Today I completed an ad copy that we'll be using in the coming days to promote discounts and different payment options at one of the websites I manage. As I would normally do whenever I write a new copy, I sent it to David for final review and any possible edits. This way we have a good working copy before it's converted to an actual html sales page.I was quite satisfied with the job I'd done and didn't expect what would happen next. I received an email from David with a tip.. he suggested that I print the copy out and get Caron (my wife) to read it out to me. He mentioned that in doing so I could hear what it sounded like and I'll be able to polish-up any areas that needed some work. No edits or other suggestions from David as he normally does, just his tip.I did what he suggested..printed the copy and got Caron to read it to me as loud as she could without disturbing Bridget our pet dog :)WOW! Over 11 silly mistakes that I didn't notice, even after I read the copy before sending it out to David. Here I was, satisfied that I had done a good job only to realize that the silly mistakes that were made would have made us not only seem unprofessional, but it would have cost us X$ in sales.My tip to you.. if you don't already ask someone to read your work, start doing so now. Additionally, get them to read it loud, this makes a big difference.
ears to be, the truth always hurts.So, exactly what types of addiction are there available for us to unwittingly sacrifice our souls for? I have composed a few examples alongside my opinion in the bid to understand the curse that our society has become victim to.
DRUGS addiction: My train of though stems from a memory of a Star Trek episode concerning a spieces called The Gem-Hadar. They were enslaved by their so called Gods with the desperation to consume a substance simply known as 'White', in order that they didn't die, sound familiar? Just how far is fiction removed from reality? The storyline ended more or less when six or so were stranded elsewhere, unable to survive without their beloved drug, they thought they were going to die. But they didn't. Going back to their homeland to set the rest of their race free, they were stunned when the others refused to believe their miracle in the making and the hierarchy had them killed off anyway.
Unfortunately drugs still prove to be one of the most dangerous of all addictions available to those who seek out its pleasures. We have all heard of the life of rock and rollers in bands and on tour and in particular well known people who have had to battle the evil of drugs. I found it interesting that Aerosmith frontman Steve Tyler and guitarist Joe Perry, back in the 1970's were given the nickname of the 'Toxic Twins' due to their rampant use of drugs (and alcohol) both on stage and off. The nick name referring to the 'toxic' combination which almost ended their careers and although they cleaned up their act they are sometimes still referred to as this twenty-five years later.
There's a whole list of British actors and actresses renowned for drug abuse and offences. Daniella Westbrook famously lost the septum of her nose and appeared on several television shows much the worse for wear, alongside celebrity nobody Tara Parma-Tomkinson – Who? Exactly. A children's presenter for the BBC Richard Bacon was famously sacked from Blue Peter in 1999 after the newspaper caught him in the act of drug abuse.
Soul singer Witney Houston's career spiralled downwards when she became involved with drugs; many put this down to the meeting of her husband Bobby Brown. The list is sadly endless…Naomi Campbell, Kate Moss, Robert Downey Jnr, Tommy Lee have all hit the headlines. These of course are people in the public eye.
If celebrities can't refine from the temptations of drugs then what hope is there for our average Joe's? I wander just how many people are actually in the grip of this infectious disease and that if anybody took the time to count them all up, just how shocking would that end figure really be.
Films for which, portray the evils of this addiction are 'Train spotting' 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas' and 'Blow' and anybody thinking of walking down this abusive path of vulgarity really need to rethink the worth of their lives, even if it seems impossibly bad at the time without drugs.
In the mean time drug rehab centres are profiting from people trying to come clean alongside the ones who got them in that position in the first place – the dealers. All those who still don't understand that we live in a dog eat dog world, need to seriously reconsider their place in it!
ALCOHOL addiction: This is much more subtle than drugs because alcohol isn't illegal but it should be. I can certainly understand how someone may get addicted to this substance because it's easy to get hold of when your underage and it's cool to get drunk when you are experimenting with your social life, during your early teens and twenties. Infact, if you didn't get absolutely hammered every Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday night then there was clearly something wrong with you and if there was a bank holiday then bring it on! Oh my poor kidneys. This new fad which hit the 1980's with a passion lead to grave warnings of binge drinking and how dangerous this seemingly social commodity really was in the cold light of the day. The day-after- the-night-before hangover was simply a reminder, rather like that of a post-it-note to yourself, to never go that far EVER again. However, most of us out grow this irresponsibility by the time we reach our mid-thirties, when all we want to do is settle down and have a family and maybe down the odd glass of vino (not bottle) or can of ale after a hard day at the office. However, some continue and this is when the addiction really bites you up the jacksy.
Apparently whilst visiting a relative in hospital, a nurse was talking to me about the drunks that regularly visited her in her work place. She said you can't die from 'Cold Turkey' withdrawal from drugs, although you feel like you are dying at the time, but you can from alcoholism. She was actually writing out a prescription for a resident for 'White Lightening Cider' as we spoke. Crazy I know.
Alcohol abuse is probably the first thing we turn to when life seems difficult but what a lot of people don't realise is that this particular drug attaches itself to how you feel at the time of consuming large quantities of it. If you are happy and on a night out to get 'smashed out of y
Getting a Mortgage Through an IFAOne of the possible ways to get a mortgage is to use an Independent Financial Advisor. Independent Financial Advisor is a personal finance specialist who will deal with different financial problems of consumers. The range of the financial problems hi/she help to solve is rather wide and diverse. It can vary from pensions to investments to mortgages. Some of the specialists specialize in the definite financial sphere; others are competent in various areas.Why to use Independent Financial Advisors? The reason is that they have access to computer programs, which easily review the whole market for your specific needs. So, you may choose the best mortgage from thousand options.The obvious advantage of using Independent Financial Advisors is that they are regulated by special Financial Services Authority. The Financial Services Authority establishes professional rules for Independent Financial Advisors. So, once the latter breaks professional rules, he/she is threatened to be expelled from the business. This makes a strong protection for consumers and correspondently makes this service rather popular among them. Independent Financial Advisors also have to obtain qualification, so their clients have the full right to check up on them. This also provides processional competence of specialists.The best way to find an Independent Financial Advisor is through recommendation. It may be given to you by your relatives, friends of friends etc., although it is said there is no good mixing business and pleasure. You just need to make sure that the specialist you are recommended helped someone with a mortgage but not with different financial solutions.To protect yourself from incompetent financial advice you may ask the specialist the
Tyler and guitarist Joe Perry, back in the 1970's were given the nickname of the 'Toxic Twins' due to their rampant use of drugs (and alcohol) both on stage and off. The nick name referring to the 'toxic' combination which almost ended their careers and although they cleaned up their act they are sometimes still referred to as this twenty-five years later.There's a whole list of British actors and actresses renowned for drug abuse and offences. Daniella Westbrook famously lost the septum of her nose and appeared on several television shows much the worse for wear, alongside celebrity nobody Tara Parma-Tomkinson – Who? Exactly. A children's presenter for the BBC Richard Bacon was famously sacked from Blue Peter in 1999 after the newspaper caught him in the act of drug abuse.
Soul singer Witney Houston's career spiralled downwards when she became involved with drugs; many put this down to the meeting of her husband Bobby Brown. The list is sadly endless…Naomi Campbell, Kate Moss, Robert Downey Jnr, Tommy Lee have all hit the headlines. These of course are people in the public eye.
If celebrities can't refine from the temptations of drugs then what hope is there for our average Joe's? I wander just how many people are actually in the grip of this infectious disease and that if anybody took the time to count them all up, just how shocking would that end figure really be.
Films for which, portray the evils of this addiction are 'Train spotting' 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas' and 'Blow' and anybody thinking of walking down this abusive path of vulgarity really need to rethink the worth of their lives, even if it seems impossibly bad at the time without drugs.
In the mean time drug rehab centres are profiting from people trying to come clean alongside the ones who got them in that position in the first place – the dealers. All those who still don't understand that we live in a dog eat dog world, need to seriously reconsider their place in it!
ALCOHOL addiction: This is much more subtle than drugs because alcohol isn't illegal but it should be. I can certainly understand how someone may get addicted to this substance because it's easy to get hold of when your underage and it's cool to get drunk when you are experimenting with your social life, during your early teens and twenties. Infact, if you didn't get absolutely hammered every Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday night then there was clearly something wrong with you and if there was a bank holiday then bring it on! Oh my poor kidneys. This new fad which hit the 1980's with a passion lead to grave warnings of binge drinking and how dangerous this seemingly social commodity really was in the cold light of the day. The day-after- the-night-before hangover was simply a reminder, rather like that of a post-it-note to yourself, to never go that far EVER again. However, most of us out grow this irresponsibility by the time we reach our mid-thirties, when all we want to do is settle down and have a family and maybe down the odd glass of vino (not bottle) or can of ale after a hard day at the office. However, some continue and this is when the addiction really bites you up the jacksy.
Apparently whilst visiting a relative in hospital, a nurse was talking to me about the drunks that regularly visited her in her work place. She said you can't die from 'Cold Turkey' withdrawal from drugs, although you feel like you are dying at the time, but you can from alcoholism. She was actually writing out a prescription for a resident for 'White Lightening Cider' as we spoke. Crazy I know.
Alcohol abuse is probably the first thing we turn to when life seems difficult but what a lot of people don't realise is that this particular drug attaches itself to how you feel at the time of consuming large quantities of it. If you are happy and on a night out to get 'smashed out of y
Fear Factor PackagingI'm getting really nervous with the daily security threats that abound in the news. People forget that packaging has an important role to play in helping keep our products safe for consumption. Remember the Tylenol packaging incident? Many packaging applications, such as the tamper evident seal and the shrink wrap band, were invented as a result of that incident. Frighteningly, a major concern should be our food supply. One bio-terrorism incident in our food supply could be a thousand times more deadly than 9/11.Packaging is starting to get some media play on this topic. I just read an article that tied packaging to the bird flu. Really! Stay tuned next week for "How Packaging Causes Global Warming." I am just kidding. But let’s get serious. There are some pretty important ways that packaging impacts our product security. In fact, I recently wrote about it in my 13 Packaging Trends for 06. The premise is that keeping products secure will be one of the most important influences on purchasing in the future.Smart or intelligent packaging has an important role to play in protecting the public. New innovations are surfacing every day. As an example, I spoke about TTI's (time-temperature indicators) at the recent Marketing to Women Conference. It is amazing how this product security enhancement impacts the purchasing decision of the female consumer.Some other exciting things I have read recently about how packaging can protect us include . . .• A Canadian-based company's Toxin Guard is a system of placing antibody-based tests on polymer packaging films to detect pathogens or other selected micro organisms. The insert sends a visual alert when it encounters targeted spoilage bacteria, or pathogens such as E-coli, Listeria
hat if anybody took the time to count them all up, just how shocking would that end figure really be.Films for which, portray the evils of this addiction are 'Train spotting' 'Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas' and 'Blow' and anybody thinking of walking down this abusive path of vulgarity really need to rethink the worth of their lives, even if it seems impossibly bad at the time without drugs.
In the mean time drug rehab centres are profiting from people trying to come clean alongside the ones who got them in that position in the first place – the dealers. All those who still don't understand that we live in a dog eat dog world, need to seriously reconsider their place in it!
ALCOHOL addiction: This is much more subtle than drugs because alcohol isn't illegal but it should be. I can certainly understand how someone may get addicted to this substance because it's easy to get hold of when your underage and it's cool to get drunk when you are experimenting with your social life, during your early teens and twenties. Infact, if you didn't get absolutely hammered every Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday night then there was clearly something wrong with you and if there was a bank holiday then bring it on! Oh my poor kidneys. This new fad which hit the 1980's with a passion lead to grave warnings of binge drinking and how dangerous this seemingly social commodity really was in the cold light of the day. The day-after- the-night-before hangover was simply a reminder, rather like that of a post-it-note to yourself, to never go that far EVER again. However, most of us out grow this irresponsibility by the time we reach our mid-thirties, when all we want to do is settle down and have a family and maybe down the odd glass of vino (not bottle) or can of ale after a hard day at the office. However, some continue and this is when the addiction really bites you up the jacksy.
Apparently whilst visiting a relative in hospital, a nurse was talking to me about the drunks that regularly visited her in her work place. She said you can't die from 'Cold Turkey' withdrawal from drugs, although you feel like you are dying at the time, but you can from alcoholism. She was actually writing out a prescription for a resident for 'White Lightening Cider' as we spoke. Crazy I know.
Alcohol abuse is probably the first thing we turn to when life seems difficult but what a lot of people don't realise is that this particular drug attaches itself to how you feel at the time of consuming large quantities of it. If you are happy and on a night out to get 'smashed out of y
Importing Made EasyYou may have heard that you cannot Import small quantities of products, and that you have to wait many weeks, even months for the goods to arrive. Also, you may have heard of the Customs problems.Well, this is all wrong! We have been doing this for years! It is so simple that it amazes me. It is all a matter of knowing how to deal with these companies in Hong Kong, Taiwan, China and South Korea. It is very refreshing dealing with them. I have never been ripped off by any of them!Even the companies that only state in their advertising their minimum quantities, like a container load, will ship small quantities. The trick is calling your request a SAMPLE ORDER! Now, you might not know it, but these companies will accept whatever quantities you request prices for in your Sample Order. Their hope is that you come back and submit a large order. Also, you can get Sample Order shipments over and over.Some companies are set up to ship small quantities without the Sample Order routine. You can tell by their price lists if they show small quantities. Otherwise, you ask them if they will ship a small Sample Order so that you can introduce their products to your customer base. They have no idea how big your company is.It is important to have the appearance of a successful firm. Use letterheads, not hand written correspondence. If you do not have a computer, you better get one quick. Join the crowd, or you will not be on the same playing field. Email makes all of this work very well. You can actually email these companies real time, when they are in the office in Hong Kong, or anywhere. Late night here, is morning there.This means instant communications, and instant action. You can request a Quotation via email, and they
n lead to grave warnings of binge drinking and how dangerous this seemingly social commodity really was in the cold light of the day. The day-after- the-night-before hangover was simply a reminder, rather like that of a post-it-note to yourself, to never go that far EVER again. However, most of us out grow this irresponsibility by the time we reach our mid-thirties, when all we want to do is settle down and have a family and maybe down the odd glass of vino (not bottle) or can of ale after a hard day at the office. However, some continue and this is when the addiction really bites you up the jacksy.Apparently whilst visiting a relative in hospital, a nurse was talking to me about the drunks that regularly visited her in her work place. She said you can't die from 'Cold Turkey' withdrawal from drugs, although you feel like you are dying at the time, but you can from alcoholism. She was actually writing out a prescription for a resident for 'White Lightening Cider' as we spoke. Crazy I know.
Alcohol abuse is probably the first thing we turn to when life seems difficult but what a lot of people don't realise is that this particular drug attaches itself to how you feel at the time of consuming large quantities of it. If you are happy and on a night out to get 'smashed out of your face' then it will accelerate this abundance in ways that are magical. However, if you drink to lose yourself in the depths of a bottle through despair it will pull you further down with potential hazardous consequences if your will is already low. And that's why alcohol is gravely misunderstood.
Celebrities who have battled with the booze are Mel Gibson who in 2006 was famously stopped for drink driving, whilst being literally tossed in the can his behaviour became unbearable and alas headlines were made when he made anti-Semitic remarks. Britney Spears went off the rails after the break-up of her marriage to Kevin Federine in 2006 and proceeded to find comfort in a bottle and this time it wasn't water. She dramatically cut off all her hair in 2007 and has apparently checked herself again into another rehab in the bid to straighten herself out. Angelina Jolie's father john Voight and Diana Ross have both admitted themselves to be long-term suffers of the disease and again the list is endless.
Just goes to show you can have all the fame and money in the world and still be searching for something else?
The film I really think really portrays the terrible pitfalls of this liquid diet are 'When a Man Loves a Woman' it actually makes me cry every time I see it.
FOOD addiction: This is my area of concern and one for which, is virtually impossible to control because you have to eat to live but not live to eat.
This addiction stems from excessive behaviour found within the ghastly All or Nothing syndrome. Anorexia's don't eat. Comfort Eaters eat too much (my problem) and Bulimics do a bit of both with the added bonus of a sore throat.
My trouble in particular is all those delicious additives they pump into the things we are warned to keep moderate towards – fast foods, sugar and salt and all things for which, satisfy my desperate need for instant gratification. The after effects are none too savoury – flatulence, acid indigestion, good old-fashioned gut rot, bad skin to name but a few. There are laxatives on the shelves to help release your constipation and all sorts of things to cancel out your diarrhoea! Weight clubs gladly take your money each week and secretly jump for joy when you gain the pounds and the glossy magazines only help to rub more salt into the wound – as they unashamedly parade size zero models like the devil wearing Prada. I mean please give me a break will you!
The television is filled with programmes like Fat Club, The Diet Doctors and so and so's guide to healthy eating, but what they fail to mention is that the whole nasty business of food abuse stems from more of an inner perspective than any external issues.
What really baffles me with this category is that it's a fact that exercise comes hand in hand with weight management and the old adage of calories in calories out depicts how much you can eat before cellulite takes your whole body hostage. But the bigger you get the more sluggish you become and if you have ever gone to any weight class and held that 5kg of potatoes you really do feel as if you are carrying them everywhere you go – and that's just on your left leg! Believe me exercise is last thing on your mind – it's hard enough walking my two dogs round the block! .
Yet food addiction is a problem for which, can be controlled and has to be if other ailments such as diabetes, stroke or heart attacks aren't to get to you first. There are foods on the list that are ok and can substitute the naughty things but no way are they the real thing and in the end unless your attitude changes then diets will forever be a yo-yo way of living.
I particularly loved the fact that I had witnessed some actresses gain more than a few pounds – until they managed to lose them all again. Kirsty Alley from Cheers fame ballooned to a huge size and even made a comedy series out of her misfortunate called 'Fat Actress' but she obviously wasn't happy because she looks stunning now in her new slim line version of her former self – but for how long? The recently deceased Anna-Nicole Smith had a similar story – apart from the whole comedy series thing. Some however, believe that her death was actually contributed in some way to her dramatic weight lose, as it was suspected that she got to the stage where she barely ate. So you see this addiction truly is the most evil if we are to believe that story.
The films I particularly associate to this addiction are 'Shallow Hal' because in a way over-eating is something darn right repulsive and in a world ruled by vanity, this only reinforces the dilemma where real beauty is trapped deep inside – unexposed and sadly hidden. On the flip side 'The Karen Carpenter Story' portrays the side effects of Anorexia - that being death.
Deep down I still pray that one day I will be able to kill off my 'hamster ways' (fill both cheeks up syndrome) for good, so that I can once again view food in a more moderated way with a kinda mutual respect. Until then I will continue to listen to my Paul McKenna tapes of self-hypnotises, without falling asleep, in my bid to find my self-esteem as a person inorder to feel whole again - so that I